Dear Diary,

I have been waiting at all costs to talk about this but if I dont get it down it may never come out, I have been going through something for quite some time. I have had multiple miscarriages not sure what is wrong with, the doctors say I am normal that I should have no reason of carrying a child since I have had a child already, but still nothing comes to mind as to why I cannot have this again. I asked the doctors over and over should have my boyfriend tested they said if he is getting me pregnant then the problem doesnt lie with him, its me. Which now makes me feel like such a failure. He to the point of doubting me, which hurt worse than getting my heart ripped out with a spoon, pretty sure we have moved passed that point, now they have me on horomones for a couple that has sent my sex drive even more through the roof, god the dreams I have had, and beside myself because I am naturally a nympho around him anyway. I am just wondering what happens now, do I have a baby do I not? What is making me this way? The stress of us not being together? Not sure what it could be. Any thoughts?