Tears of Blood

I know no one really reads this probably but found something from my past when I was in a really bad place, kinda hit me today....

.....I have cried so much from the pain my life has dealt
You would to had you known the depth of pain I felt
Not sure you could understand even if you tried
Bet you cannot even consume the amount of tears I cried
Life was a bed of roses, but already whithered and the thorns around the buds
The day in my life when my tears turned to blood
No longer water for I was all cried out
The emotional wrecking, my flesh ripped apart I was inside out
Could not stop the bad things got to be more unbarable even to everything and everyone I cared about
The tears of blood began to stain my skin
Tears of hate, words of anger,and anguish could it stain my soul deep within
I hate the words the ugly thoughts sometimes its like a demon lashing almost speaking in tongues
Worse than bullet through the brain, a knife through my heart, a repeated song that is over sung
The evil man whom this hatred is for, he still holds on her dreams, her life, her words ; never heard an unexpected end unfolds
Hard to forgive the man who took your innocence away everything lays buried deep inside
Wishing she never remembered the horrible things, never to speak, hear or see of this pain all she has left if her pride
Begging God for release of this hell
Wanting him to burn there as well
Wondering if she would ever have faith
Or stay demented and full of disgrace
She did things no man woman or child should bear
If they knew could they do more than stare
She made amends with the man upstairs
A wise old woman said only you can take yourself there
Tears of blood you shall shed no more
She said everyone is worthy of heavens glory doors
Sobbing so hard, does she deserve this love or any at all
Wondering still would the tears of blood return to haunt her once again
What would happen from beginning to end


Something I would never wish upon no one and anyone who has been there understands....