Long Distance Call

At the sound of your sweet sexy voice coming across the lines,

Miles it seems and imperfections

In such desperation not having you near you say close the blinds

Now find a quiet spot our favorite in the couch section

Turning up the fire, you say now there is nothing to fear

My heart thumps as so loud I swear the angels in heaven could hear

Dont think they should if we are about to do what I think

I crumble helplessly the way you whisper my name

Oh baby how I wished you were really here

I tremble with thoughts, my body shakes with desire, lower I begin to sink

My blood runs hot, my fingers run down oh God I am never going to be the same

My body jumping in places I never knew existed

Longing to crawl into the cold reciever feel your hands you whispering in my ear

Awaiting to be in your arms, feel your kiss

I close my eyes you want my hands to explore I move them south I cannot resist

I hear your commands, I obey the wetness I feel, oh God why arent you just here

It feels as if you are right there, whispering my name begging for more, oh you know what I want to hear

The hot energy through the lines could our passion melt it as we race through

So lost in ecstasy I am in tune only with you and your words on me

Whispering to me cant hold on much longer I need to hear you explode so I can with  you

I can almost feel your warm breath on my neck as it gets closer oh the naughty things you must do

My hands are your hands as they grab my breasts oh baby please

The sweetness of your kiss, wild and untamed

Awakening this animal urge in you, oh the things we do to one another

My hands ache to touch the softness of your lips rubbing the smoothness of your bald head

I remember the glimpse of your loving eyes as you whisper my name

In desperation we crave and yearn each other

Remembering your scent how your kiss taste

The sweetness of your skin oh baby please go ahead

Remembering how we were flesh against flesh so close to you the miles fall away

All I want is you

Needing your body next to mine

Screaming out releasing the passion begging you not to stop just stay

Feeling the depth of the love you give the love you do

Our breaths blend our souls touch the tears fall oh my God I never felt this way

Even the long distance of this call cannot restrain the passion we feel

Miles seperate but oh this love's expression we just exploded upon one another

Cant imagine loving anyone else this way, cant wait to see you again

We fall exhausted in the bed dreaming of this embrace oh baby this is so real

Passion so fierce we will just attack each other

Burn a hole right through the floor oh baby cant wait this ulitmate lovers sin come on in

Forever Foe or Friend

Friends for so long almost ten years ago we met

You always excited me I hadnt even laid eyes on you in person yet

Always wanting more but I was never the one, or pretty enough for you

Think I was always in love with you, you in search of what was true

Through the years it was hit and miss

Truth be told I would die for a kiss

Thinking back to the boy I met when he was in the Northern Light

How grown up you are wished we would have made more of that one night

Through the years, we ve stayed in touch I guess we will always be better as friends

I dont think there is a chance you would ever love me in the end

Wished I knew what was going through your mind

Mixed feelings I bury just to be with you this time

Just wanted you to know no matter you are my best friend and you have the biggest piece of my heart

But I'd rather have you as my best friend than be lovers and you leave never another word with a broken shattered heart

Tears of Blood

I know no one really reads this probably but found something from my past when I was in a really bad place, kinda hit me today....

.....I have cried so much from the pain my life has dealt
You would to had you known the depth of pain I felt
Not sure you could understand even if you tried
Bet you cannot even consume the amount of tears I cried
Life was a bed of roses, but already whithered and the thorns around the buds
The day in my life when my tears turned to blood
No longer water for I was all cried out
The emotional wrecking, my flesh ripped apart I was inside out
Could not stop the bad things got to be more unbarable even to everything and everyone I cared about
The tears of blood began to stain my skin
Tears of hate, words of anger,and anguish could it stain my soul deep within
I hate the words the ugly thoughts sometimes its like a demon lashing almost speaking in tongues
Worse than bullet through the brain, a knife through my heart, a repeated song that is over sung
The evil man whom this hatred is for, he still holds on her dreams, her life, her words ; never heard an unexpected end unfolds
Hard to forgive the man who took your innocence away everything lays buried deep inside
Wishing she never remembered the horrible things, never to speak, hear or see of this pain all she has left if her pride
Begging God for release of this hell
Wanting him to burn there as well
Wondering if she would ever have faith
Or stay demented and full of disgrace
She did things no man woman or child should bear
If they knew could they do more than stare
She made amends with the man upstairs
A wise old woman said only you can take yourself there
Tears of blood you shall shed no more
She said everyone is worthy of heavens glory doors
Sobbing so hard, does she deserve this love or any at all
Wondering still would the tears of blood return to haunt her once again
What would happen from beginning to end


Something I would never wish upon no one and anyone who has been there understands....

Dear Diary....

Today I had the most amazing day dream about my baby, we were trying to find a place to be alone we ended up at place like lovers point we had this music playing that just set the mood, I remember one song in my dream by Foreigner "I Wanna Know What Love Is" I could hear it playing over and over. Knowing how much I loved this man all I wanted him to do was show me. It felt like we hadnt made love in ages. He hadnt kissed me in forever. We parked in this place, and I felt him kissing me, him biting my bottom lip, and kissing my neck, biting me a little more. I felt his hands inside my shirt and all I wanted was his mouth all over my chest. His hands, and his mouth was caressing my breasts, I felt the strength of his hands as he cupped them, running his fingers over them I was arched back feeling so lost in his touch. I could stand no more I kissed him softly and made my way down on him showing him I missed him I knew he was feeling it, somehow my pants disappeared his hand had found this warm wet place and his hand, his fingers made it even wetter. I felt like he was going to explode so I stopped and kissed him. I slid on top of him I felt the length of him overpower my body. We got so lost in each other, kissing him, him holding me up close to him as we move with the rhythm of the music. It was such an incredible feeling. Then I opened my eyes because he texted me, thought we could replay what was in my mind today it didnt happen that way just all frustrated and nuts now...

Dear Diary,

I have been waiting at all costs to talk about this but if I dont get it down it may never come out, I have been going through something for quite some time. I have had multiple miscarriages not sure what is wrong with, the doctors say I am normal that I should have no reason of carrying a child since I have had a child already, but still nothing comes to mind as to why I cannot have this again. I asked the doctors over and over should have my boyfriend tested they said if he is getting me pregnant then the problem doesnt lie with him, its me. Which now makes me feel like such a failure. He to the point of doubting me, which hurt worse than getting my heart ripped out with a spoon, pretty sure we have moved passed that point, now they have me on horomones for a couple that has sent my sex drive even more through the roof, god the dreams I have had, and beside myself because I am naturally a nympho around him anyway. I am just wondering what happens now, do I have a baby do I not? What is making me this way? The stress of us not being together? Not sure what it could be. Any thoughts?

“I cannot exist without you - I am forgetful of every thing but seeing you again - my Life seems to stop there - I see no further. You have absorb'd me. I have a sensation at the present moment as though I were dissolving... I have been astonished that Men could die Martyrs for religion - I have shudder'd at it - I shudder no more - I could be martyr'd for my Religion - Love is my religion - I could die for that - I could die for you. My creed is Love and you are its only tenet - You have ravish'd me away by a Power I cannot resist.”   
―      John Keats

 

Can the love of one person be quoted as a religion, can the love of one person make you feel new heights of evolution? Finding one person that would literally make you float off the ground and do things you would never think possible? Love making you feel as though nothing else exists but you and him.

Personally speaking I can say I feel I have found this kind of love. Loving someone so much, despite the differences we have, despite the distance that seperates us from being as one sometimes, when we are together it is like heaven and the earth moves, mountains peak higher. It is such an amazing feeling.  I believe in heaven and hell, I have seen and felt to much not to, my partner however does not, wondering if that will ever change, but the love he makes me feel forgets all else. I pray all the time, I am not sure he does, but I know the love we have grows so deeply that he is buried so deep within my soul, it is there that only he and God dwell.

I have to believe God is the one who made this love possible. I have waited so long. How else could it be possible?

 

 

Cant Stop Crying

I cant stop crying because I am missing you
Even though you were just here its all I can seem to do
Being apart the way we are
Even though the distance isnt far
We do what we can until we can figure something out
How to be together all the time sharing our love about

Happy together and so much in love
People may not understand but fate was given to us from above
So scared that I could no longer be strong
You promised I wouldnt have to do it alone you would stay by my side holding on

Tears of joy I cry now only sad ones when you arent near
But you promised no matter how far apart we are you are always here
No longer will I cry from being miserable and fear of being alone
I have so much love it is our own
Even when I cry when I am not with you
I look forward to our love because I know it is true

Written by Jenna@2002 11/5/02

The Last Time I Held You

The last time I held you it was such a sweet night
Never letting go holding on so tight
A feeling I had I want you to know
Thinking now please dont let him let me go
Pulling your body in closer to me
Falling into your arms as close as I can be
I held you in my embrace feeling your heart beat
Feeling the pressure of passions heat
Hearing you silently whisper I love you
Wanting you again and again What am I to do
Kissing me slowly the power of your embrace
Cupping in your hands holding onto my face
Whispering you promis to love me forever
As long as I'll have you you said that is how long we will be together
You are the only man who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time
You are the only one I ever wanted to be mine
Trying not to be sad because I know I'll hold you again
Our life has just started we have so much to do before it comes to an end

Written by Jenna@2002 2/1/02

My Savior, My Love, My Soulmate...

You came into my life when I had lost all hope
When I thought I had failed at finding love thinking I couldnt cope

Showing me the truth unconditional love
Made ne wonder still if you were sent straight from God above

Take away the pain fear sorrow and sadness
Giving me sanity though my insane life giving me such happiness

Capturing my heart the very essence of my soul
No one else ever I hope you understand always will be your Jenbo

You mean the world to me
You are everything trur love should be

The passion of your kiss the joy of your touch
Staying together holding on to each other even more when times are rough

Truly you are my best friend, my lover, my souls one true mate
Leaving one another would have been our greatest mistake

We stuck it out held on for dear life
I feel so underserving and so lucky to be your wife

Full of compassion understanding and love
My gift baby is you truly of God above

You are my soulmate
Stronger together in destiny hope and faith

Written By Jenna2005 4/25/05

Because of You

With you things seem to be better everytime your around I light up with a smile

Never a frown in your arms crying horribly from being seperated by miles

So nervous when you are close there is so much to say

Not sure but your presence seems smooth in every way

A love grown between is through many heartaches and tears

Your love seems to be slowly breaking my fears

Because of you I have felt love like I have never known before

The kind of love I have wanteded forevermore

You amaze me in ways I cannot explain the way you make me explode so exciting

My soulmate I feel you are, when you arent near a part of me is missing so lost without you

The more our love grows the more open we are our love will be even more true

Written by Jenna@2005 4/25/05

The Soul Moves Me

The energy of your soul moves me
Undeniable sensations of passion flow please just release
Make the deepest part of my heart escapes to you
I see love in your eyes the devil in your smile

Feelings of joy your soul moves me feelings come forth
A sweet song of echoes in my mind
Speaking of words so sweet that stay within my heart
Sweet laughter abounds your innocent style

Your soul moves me in every way
We found our union of one
To hold and cherish all our life
It was your soul that moved me

Written by Jenna@2002 2/5/02

Dreaming About You

We lay awake each night
Yes where you are I am here alone
Dreaming of nothing but holding you tight
Us so sad of being on our own

Wishing nothing more than to listen to your heart beat
Falling asleep under the covers as the rain pours outside
Making love all through the night that would be so sweet
But you are there and I am here it makes me want to cry

Dreaming of the day we can be together again
Missing you so much it feels as though my heart is dying
After so long of the absence of your arms
Dreaming of you then you arent here I still wake up crying

Soon my love ill be in your arms the rest of ever
As husband and wife happily ever after

Written by Jenna@2009 4/28/09

Lost and Found

Love we have unlike anything I ve known or thought I deserved but in my heart you found a way there
Being slow in the beginning even before flirting I thought you could be mine
I seen how much you cared
Innocent and sweet finding all these little ways there we were talking more drawn to you sinking into this flirty play
Feelings grow without a touch not knowing the taste of your kiss without even seeing your face
Wondering what if wondering about your embrace
My soul seems to be complete one connection
One love we posess finally after one kiss
Finding love in each other not a moment we want to miss
When I want to run I am right in your arms
So wonderful what we share hoping it lasts forever
Nothing more I want than you and I together

written by jenna@2008 6/25/08

Perfect Night

It is almost a perfect night
I gaze at the stars by the window
My hair blowing in the cool breeze
Oh my neck I feel a soft blow

I feel a shiver up my spine
As his fingertips caress my back so bare
He moves closer to me
Running his fingers through my hair

He flings around
Grabs me by the hips
Looks deep into my eyes
Licking trembling lips


He throws me on the bed
As he plants a huge wet kiss
His hands exploring all over
Not a spot he would miss

He passionately touches
Kisses licks my every curve
Whispering sweet nothinfs in my ear
Snesations running wild through my every nerve

The chills and tingling escalate
And passion now prevails
Completely lost within each other
Hidden fantasies slowly unveil

Locking in on a hot spot
As he calls out my name
He lets out deep sighs
Enjoying this erotic game

Our warm bodies intertwined
In a state of sheer ecstasy
Internal flames wildly burning
Escapade ending so magically

Laying on my satin sheets
On this almost perfect night
With a glass of wine on hand
With you it would feel so right

Written by Jenna@2008 8/28/08

I Dropped A Tear

All eyes see my love for you grows every day
Nothing to stop it no one could get in its way
You're all I think about, you are all I will ever need
All who try to get in the way better take heed
I dont want to let go I love our little world
I love the way you call me your babygirl

Your love is like a waterfall beautifully falling all around and inside
If ever it stopped flowinf my heart would drown a part of me would surely die
I fought so hard to keep you before
I would fight again even harder even more
Your parents or mine cannot stop this love from turning
They cannot stop this incredible yearning

I want to leave my a life of our own
Hoping and praying they will just leave us alone
I cry each night waiting to be in your embrace
I miss your hand catching my tears caressing my face
I dropped a tear in the ocean when you said we were through
Whenever you find it is the day I will stop loving you

Knowing you loved me, you didnt stand up for our love
You let them win my heart sank broke into pieces from below to above
No more tears shall I cry I will move on in search of a truier love than yours
And maybe one day my heart will mend enough to carefully open the door

Written by Jenna@2002 10/28/02

Cant We Be Friends

What happened to that instant spark
It cant be that quickly torn apart
Im not really sure its quiet now
Everyone asks I tell them I dont know please help somehow
Everytime I see you passing by
You look right through me inside I want to cry
Was something there
Did you ever care
Yes no I dont know it feels so strange I still cant let go
I keep trying but you sealed in my heart
Hard to move in it ended badly everything ripped apart

You take my breath away with memories of your smile
You broke my heart with silence didnt even try for awhile
I am hoping you will just talk to me like before
Just be a friend thats all I am asking for
Things in life has changed
My life rearranged
I wish you were still here still a little dont you care
I know I cant have you back
But please just admit you cared please just be a friend
I am still here for you until the very end
written by jenna@2002 9/10/02

Scarlett Letter

A woman from the purtian times
Married to a man who was cruel, he was sent to war on the sea line
Her husband was gone for many years
She fell in love with the pastor of her new town still she had many fears
Fears of her husband not sure he was dead or people finding out of her forbidden love, would their love previal or burn
News of death one night of passion with true love a beautiful little girl
Inprisoned her for sin for not whispering who the father was she would not reveal it to the world
In her state of prison the preacher wanted to confess
She begged him no the preacher in his own prison would not breathe of the mess
Out of prison with her daughter, forced to wear the letter "A" on her chest
Even though her husband not found an adultery was the sin she said
She bared the sin on her breast
Shunned by everyone whispering and the gossip talk
Mocked about wherever she walked
One day her husband returns put of the blue
Wants to know the man who bedded his wife the awful things he wanted to do
The husband went away to the same in the preacher never found out, the wife lived alone a few more years
The preacher tired of bearing the secret confessed the little girl of three or four was his and hers
They moved away to live their lives together happy without anymore fear
The husband run a muck when the indians invaded and he died there alone
The preacher and the purtian woman lived many years before the preacher passed he gave all his love to his wife and little girl
I suppose you could peace surrounded their small little world

Written by Jenna@2010

Lay My Heart To Rest

My heart has been asleep so unraveled by pain
I pray to God each day this will not turn out the same
I have such deep feelings we got so close so fast
Thought I was in love before but unlike the others I want this one to be the last
I have cried so many broken heart tears
I have seen and felt all the fears
When we came back together I swear fate was looking our way
I pray to God everyday with me is where you want ot stay

Lay my heart to rest within your deepest soul
I pray to God each day my love is the only one you want to know
I have my doubts still yet, because I am not beautiful to all the world
You make me feel that way though everytime you say "your my babygirl"
I hope for the day when you ask me to be yours forever
I feel so lonely without you definitely we are better together

I want to lay my head to rest in yours
Be with you forevermore
Dying to know if you feel the same way
I felt the love when you asked if you could stay

my heart is yours for the taking
I dont think I will see it breaking
Knowing I love you and you love me
Its where we belong together forever blessed be

written by jenna@2004 8/18/04

Players Contradictions

He is just a man full of contradictions says one thing he means another
leading her on she makes her on conclusions
She falls in love and being sucked into another of his delusions
Is anything better than being alone
Would she be ok on her own
Seems all her life she is just surrounded by desires of all these men
Whats happening now What could happen then
Devoting herself until the circumstances change
Not wanting to feel left out Staying with him he is a little deranged
Not wanting everyone to be lonely she cannot settle to just one man he
cannot settle to just one woman players contradictions both as honest dishonest
as they can
Left out and lonely now what to do
Both his and her contradictions not so different every word is true
Causing pain to each other even though they are brother and sister
But when they do get married itll be in a congregation of true
Christians where everybody present are brother and sister


Winter 2005

True Friendship

I dont know what it is I see
Is it you or is it me
I watch your eyes they look my way
As if you are hanging on every word I say
I see you so clear and feel the touch of your hand
I just dont know if I can fit into your plan
Your destiny is such a greater call
I am almost taken so how could I possibly fall
Your eyes tell a story
One of hope many worries
Follow your heart speak about what you feel
Be honest and keep it real
I have for you the upmost respect
Bul ill keep in for further aspect
Ill hope a friendship will come of this
For it is pur talks I will miss
I am not that far that you cant say hey
For my love is eternal I am never going far away
A word from your Father the oh grateful Lord
Ill always be there for you have but to open the door

Written by Jenna@2000 Summer 2000 (for Elder Corbett Jackson)

A Hearts Fear

Something happened to us awhile ago to make your heart doubt and fear
But yet you are still here wanting to be near
The look I see deep within your eyes
I swear sometimes makes me want to cry
The feelings we share when you me the way you do
I dont see how that cant come from your heart isnt it true?

I knoe you cant let this doubt pass by
Please have the patience the truth you seek is close please dont go for I would surely cry
I know its alot to ask but you know what I am telling you is real
Please just look inside to see the truth go with us and what you feel

I know you are scared of getting hurt its hard to let anyone in
I promise to be careful with your heart I know where its been
I to have had it rough
And sometimes its easier to be to be tough
But we have this connection unlike any I have felt in the longest time
I am proud to say that you are mine

When you cried with me I knew there was something there I know you really care
Please dont let your heart stay closed because of doubt and fear
Know that I am the truth and please let me near
I will take good care of you
And in your heart of hearts you know this is true

Written by Jenna@2005 11/25/05

I BREATHE IN I BREATHE OUT
I ran into someone the other day

Asking why we weren’t together where had you gone astray

My heart still beating only God knows how or why

Hoping one day happiness will come just trying to get through a day and not cry

I was doing so well until someone mentioned your name

All the feeling flooding over me, making me feel the same ole same

They asked me how I am getting along without you here

I look and say I breathe in , I breathe out

One foot moving in front of the other, not sure how to go about

I take each day slow hoping you wont love me that way anymore

Makes it harder to let go when you wont shut the door

Still wanting to be lovers when we can barely be friends

I feel that soon might have to come to an end

I just breathe in I breathe out

Trying to get my life together without you not wanting to remember how deep love used to be

My heart cries out wanting to be near you I know I cant or ill never be free

You once were the joy the took away my tears

I believed you were the one who clouded my fears

Finding a peace within the pain

I had to let go to not go insane

Even though my heart is broken I breathe in I breathe out

Going day by day slowly taking what comes find love again and what true love is all about

Each breath within me will heal my broken heart

And realizing the even without you my world wont fall apart

Mirrored Reflection

Seeing through my friends eye of what I have been writing may leave the impression that I am not over someone. I am not in love with this person, and I am not going back to this person. Just some days it is hard when our band plays on the radio, or I hear a song he used to sing to me. I was inspired to write this just a few minutes ago by my best friend. I was looking at myself and what I would become if I dont just take a few steps back and change my direction. Rod you are the greatest friend anyone could ever have and I am honored to be yours. Love you bunches.

Mirrored Reflection

Seeing myself in the mirror I didn’t like the reflection looking back at me

I told myself I needed to change if my heart was ever going to be free

Looking through the glass I saw what I had lost

A love I thought so strong, but it was tainted and now look at the cost

Yes my heart was shattered seemed I was slipping in the dark

Worse than any animal that could rip your flesh apart

Looking through the glass I thought I saw you there

Staring back at me it seemed an illusion this face that claims to care

Seeing you I thought my heart would surely stop its beat

Fall right out of my chest and hit between the dirt and my feet

It didn’t you see as I am still here

Wondering what tomorrow will bring, when your voice in my head I don’t hear

Seeing you looking back at me as if you had something to say

But what else could there be, you made your choice that day

My heart my be crushed because I know what we had was so real

But sometimes you have to move on even if its not in what you feel

I saw it in my writing what I obviously cant deny

Yes I love you still but I don’t want the chance for you again to make me cry

Love can change even though it still is embedded in your heart

I just cant stay with you, I am tired of being ripped apart

I am getting through without you little more every day that goes by

I will get over you its working now I don’t even have to try

You are now not the first thing on my mind

I don’t use our memories to pass the time

I am moving on to bigger and brighter things

Enjoying life looking through the glass I see the beginning of change

Wonderful and grand at what could in store

A glorious it will be when my heart doesn’t love you anymore



My best friend Rod helped inspire this one. I hope you will enjoy. Thank you Rod for making me see the light in things and keeping me from sliding into darkness.

If I...

If I....

If I close my eyes I can see us together me and you

I see us in this place I wish you could see me too

If I could close my eyes feel your body cover me like a blanket of new fallen snow

Feeling the strength not want to get up just the embrace of your body I will know

In this huge world now we find each other in this place

Like a gentle breeze that calms you, just the look upon your face

From the moment I saw you, I knew that we could have something true and real

So obvious now from just the way talking to you makes me feel

I know the second when your lips touch mine

The scent of you is intoxicating, one the lingers throughout time

Wanting the chance to know your hand holding mine, your fingers tracing my body it makes me think so much more

Do you know what it is you do to me, I wish you could see what I am looking for

Savoring every moment I get chills when you walk up next to me

I want to lose control I have to remember my heart cannot yet be free

Knowing what is going through my mind you come closer pull me to your embrace

I feel the heat from your body that sexy smile written across your beautiful face

Wrapping my legs around you, you carry me laying kisses from my ears to my lips brushing them against hair

Needing..wanting to feel a rhythm as you take my breath of what is to come I think it is more than I can bare

My desire for you grows, so much wanting an emptiness that used to burn

Wanting to get lost in each other, passion to satisfy fulfilling this longing yearn

How do I make you see for each other we are right

All I want to feel is you holding me so tight

Do you think I am worthy for a love to fight

If I close my eyes I can see us together me and you....

Enveloping your arms around me whispering and smiling babygirl I see it too

Untitled :For Jonathan

Waiting for an Angel

Waiting for someone to get me through the nightly screams

I lay there each time hearing you speak in my dreams

An angel who sings to me with a voice that carries me through

We talk during the day I think all the time who are you

This angel who makes me smile

Even though it seems its thousands and thousands of miles

Many days gone by and we get to know more scared to death of what could or couldnt be

I dont know if you feel the same as me

I do pray tell that we can be close in one way or another

Seeing as how well so far we have connected with each other

Feeling your absence even though it hasnt been long since we spoken

I am wondering now if you miss talking to me to, knowing it was a little often

For hours that got longer it was nice to see a side of you

Know that every word you hear is nothing more than honest and true

Wishing I werent so shy about certain things

I worry a little if nothing is there then what joy would it bring

But this angel who sings to me is someone I want to know more

After all, all I have to do one tiny thing to open the door

The Nearness of You

My thoughts are you thinking of you this night

Although the miles keep us apart

This distance embeds me wondering what it would be like to hold you tight

To know what is inside your soul deep into your heart

To understand this feeling

I cannot ask I know you are confused asking yourself what you could do

However this compassion, wishing and hoping to see

Just to feel the nearness of you

Sadness for not being able to hear your voice

Near enough to know if this is real

Such a happiness when we talk

For the thought of what I could share with you

The tender thoughts you feel

As my body aches

For the nearness of you

I long to hear your voice...feel your touch

Your arms wrapped together in mine

To see your face

As I feel your embrace

All this time we are given

To make love worth trying again

Do You Love Me

Our hearts and feelings seemed to burst open wide...

We can no longer run we can no longer hide

Fulfillment of desire, one we cannot explain

Pouring out my heart to you, I didnt know if I could stay sane

I was so afraid that you wouldnt want to be with me

The passion we have felt oh my god..we cant just let it be

Indefinite feelings...unsure...scared but I know what I am feeling for you is real

More emotion, more ecstasy, more than you thought you could ever feel

Falling in love with you eyes beaming with eternal shine

Is it true or just a dream oh god please say you are really mine

I dont know how we will make it work with you so far away

I am willing to try because I want to be with you in every way

Feeling this is more than fate that brought us together

I believe we could have something that could last forever

Beyond sexual attraction beyond lust for each other, a deep a yearning love

Seemingly made for each other, the very breathe I breathe such pleasure felt from the heavens above

Just holding my hand and looking into my eyes

When we made love even with your voice I swear I didnt mean to cry

Please tell me you want me as much as you know I want you

That we can love like this and want each other so much we can be together, I know have that faith no matter the miles we can make it true

Tell me now do you love me as I love you?

A Song

I wanted to write a song for you I wanted it to be something real

I wanted to let you know all the thoughts in my head exactly how I feel

I wanted to be able to sing to you when you were sad

To come up close and hold you when you were raving mad

Silently hold your hand when all is calm and still

Resting my head on your shoulder when your are blue, or confused of how you feel

I know what is stirring and you dont really understand

But this spark between us growing dont know what it is about you man

Wanting to hear your voice, just to see you smile

Not caring about the distance the unbelievable miles

If what we share is more than the way we see each other but what we feel when we are talking

I know it would worth the travel every mile of riding even walking

I dont think is a song just my mindless rambling of what is on my mind

I just cant shake this feeling of wanting to be near you

I dont know what will become if you are even attracted to me, I dont know what to do

All I want is to hear your voice again I miss our nightly conversations

The innocence of a little flirting...the innocence of first temptations

I dont know what will become of us, it would be nice for something more

I guess we will never know until we open the door

Love or Lust

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. ........



Someone who can weaken your soul with a simple smile....

Someone who can show you things even from thousands of miles

Knowing just a simple voice and you feel as though you are completely lost in each other

Wondering how well we will get to know one another

Not knowing if what you are feeling is love or some kind of infatuation

Wondering how to hold control of the situation

Knowing you felt empty and suddenly your heart is complete

Just lying still feeling your heart every single beat

Feeling you near me when I hear you

Missing you every minute it seems I dontt know what to do

Wondering if this is what love feels like

Once you fall you never forget it is like riding a bike

Knowing you feel so strongly drawn to each other...feeling such an attraction

Thinking of each other all the time such a nice distraction

Something you feel that has weakened your soul, not sure if it is love

Something between planted this desire I am sure it was given from above

For everyone there is someone and we are alike in so many ways

I know if we just let it come it will be with us for all our days

Love has knocked and opened up our hearts

Do we take the chance or will we let it fall apart

A Home to your Broken Heart

When you feel you are lost in the dark

When it feels you have pushed out in the cold

When you feel you lost the love in your soul

I am here to be a home to your broken heart



When you want to cry and think its crazy to feel this way

Knowing love wasnt there after all the secret is out

I wanting so much to shield your pain

I want you to know I am here to be a home to your broken heart



When you are alone thinking what you did wrong how could you make it better

I see you for who you are its her loss for not seeing what I can see

When you see through the pain and something that looks like your soul

You can run to me I will be here for you to be a home to your broken heart



Pieces so small they could be passed through the eye of a needle

I will be the savior to pick you up and lead you to the direction of a new light

Hoping you will see the good and what others know about you

I am here for you to be a home to broken heart



Even when the broken is gone and the pain is no more

I will still be here to help you when you feel you want to fall

Knowing you can count on me through everything I will never go

I will be a home to heart broken or not

To Be A Home To Your Broken Heart

To be a home to your broken heart feeling your cries when you miss someone sometimes

Knowing that maybe I dont say nothing at all I try not to worry when you say you are fine

Love will find you ..that place where you belong

I am sure for someone like you it wont be long

I am here with you through spirit and heart

Cry if need be I promise to hold you if you fall apart

To be a home to your broken heart I know what I must do

Sometimes its nothing, just listening to you, wishing I were closer  but heres something now, a big hug from me to you

Nothing short of what you deserve to find happiness through the pain

I promise to hold you up not let you go insane

A wise friend once told me things will get better that I would find my day to shine

Such a great person he was so generous, so caring, so loving so very kind

A home to your broken heart to help you the best I can to heal

Trust me I have been there lower even I know how you feel

I want you to know I love you my friend

I will be there with you I am here until the very end

With Every Beat of my Heart

With every beat of my heart

I want to feel yours beating next to mine

Feeling stirred the the weeks of talking

I want to know what is going on this time

With every beat of my heart

I want to feel yours beating next to mine

So many chances to be closer still

Feeling the beat skip telling me you are closer this time

With every beat of flustered heart

Are you getting excited as I

Knowing its yours if you want to be for me is there a tiny part

With every beat of my heart

I wish to hears in sync with mine

Calling now for you to be here

Wondering if your heart can answer the call this time

With every beat of my heart

I feel the butterflies because I like you more and more

Every beat pounds harder wondering if you want it, or just to pull me apart

With every beat of my heart

When we dont talk the beats get slow wanting to talk to you more

Can you hear the beating

It sounds as loud as a hellious roar

With eavery beat of my heart

I want know what its like for you to be close to me

Right now the beats are alone because you arent here

Waiting patiently to talk to you again, wishing it was time to see

Every beating of my heart

I wish to see you more every day

Hoping that you might want me to

Or will this all just go away

Pain

Pain without love

Love without pain

Is it love if you dont feel both

Pain seems to follow love

Feeling love then it rips from your heart pain takes control

Like a stabbing feeling then repeats over and over

Feeling it rough would rather feel pain than nothing

Still alive if I feel the pain

Love more grand so long as its real

Forgiving for the pain can you love to much

Feeling we are closer no more wretching pain

Pain within love only crying when you leave

Coming back again whole with the battling scars

Not wanting to believe you promised to come back no matter

Ripping the flesh but cannot dig from the depths of your soul

Seeing as the pain makes you cry out

Love calls out even more as you whisper my name

I hear you in my dreams

I cry out to God to bring you home

Feeling sure pain cannot override the place you call your home

My heart in yours as yours in mine my spirit in yours as yours in mine

The pain you endure the love you have with me so much more

you and me

I never understood in all this time
How my feelings grew for you why you wouldn’t leave my mind
Such friends become so much more, I shiver at the sound of your voice
You have my love, so much stronger than lust controlling my feelings and senses like I have no other choice

I thought I would never love after my last heartbreak
Walls go up, guard goes down the essence of you is more than I can take
With you I can escape
Knowing you will be there early or late
How you know when to be I honestly don’t know its some kind of fate

To be with you in this fight of love not knowing what we will do
Knowing we cannot run from this feeling its deep inside of me and you
This love we share so much deep than lust it makes my heart melt
I think every since the day we met this is how I truly felt
Will we forever last needing you so much not wanting to be by myself

Nobody has touched me like this such a soft sexy voice wanting to look deep in your eyes
Making my body ache and arch for you so overwhelming it made me let out a tiny cry
Letting love escape from a breath
So excited and yet scared to death

Such feelings I have for you, feeling the love aching for the lust
I give you my complete and utter trust
Your faith in me makes me believe I can do anything
No matter what we do such joy you bring

Feeling empty when I don’t hear your voice, missing you so much
Forever I think I will be in love, forever in lust

Sweet distractions your love makes me so weak
All I long for is to hear you speak
This feeling I don’t want to share with anyone but you
Lasting I hope this love I breathe I want it in your heart to be true

Desire that runs through my heart body and soul
Feeling in agony wanting you so much you know
Physical pleasure both you and I to forever explore
This love and lust for you in my very core

Wondering about forever I know it is a long word
But to know this lust and love forever, could be the sweetest we have ever heard
Intertwined in your words, wanting more I am in such desire

Feeling you intoxicates me sets my entire body on fire

Hold On to my Heart

Can you hold on to my heart and please try not to let it break
I put my faith in our love it is yours all you have to do is take

Such a risk after all that has been said and done

I want to be with you and sometimes I don’t know if I should run

There is a flame burning within my soul so deep within my heart

No rain or nothing can put it out, praying it doesn’t fall apart

I am so afraid I will do something to screw it up and let what is good right now go

Can you help hold me in this place, not let me go, so much still you have to know

Love that burns within body wondering will my heart be able to take this on

Holding together a new love creating with you such a beautiful bond

I am begging you to just hold me close when I start to cry

Tell me everything is okay as you kiss the tear from my eye

I don’t want to be alone anymore, I want to trust in what we have at our pace, going toward the right place

To know if this is love we feel , to kiss your lips to feel you in my embrace

Hold on to my heart please keep it close to yours

I am anticipating at the thought of us being in forevermore

Forever free of this pain of love letting us down

Such sweet smiles instead of unhappy frowns

I will be there for you as long as you want me to be

Loving you for waiting so patiently

I know it isn’t easy when you just want to be so near

Every day we get closer a less fear

One day soon I know it will come to pass

When I am with you and you with me making this dream one to last

Egyptian Cotton

I call you this morning and I caught you still in slumber

Freezing outside the covers we just want to stay under

I had never been lucky to catch you still in bed

Thinking it would be warmer the blanket slips over my head

Usually how I sleep skin touching my sheets

When you said that is how you were, I was jealous then thinking how very sweet

Explaining to you about the Egyptian cotton how soft against ones bare skin

You could just lay there forever wrapped up again and again

Hearing you wake up to me was such an honor to share

Even more so when there was more you wanted to bare

Getting turned on by my stretching and that cute little sounds

Turning out my bottom lip into something sexy and not a frown

Listening to you kiss me so passionate and still

My insides quivering shaking do you understand how I feel

Almost feeling the heat from your breath coming straight through the phone

Wanting to claim every part of me as your very own

The sweetness in the air as you whispered my name

After this moment I know I will never be the same

Flames rising within me, making me say things you haven’t heard before

Begging you to take me please touch me just once more

Let me feel the hardness of you so very deep inside

From you my body cannot hide

In control I am at your command

Please be gentle and do what you can

I feel the steady rhythm as you wish it were hand

Wanting to show you so much, pleasuring each other every want we can

Tightening up against you as I feel you about to explode

Screaming out your name words in pure desire so much you don’t know

Making my toes go numb and curl from the other end of the line

Feeling so honored that you wanted to be mine

This simple girl from such a small place

Wanting nothing more than to hold me in your embrace

Wishing to be nowhere else just spending my days with you

Waking up to mornings like this, soon to sleep with them each night, nothing else more I want to do

Just to love me and only me this way, my heart is yours I will be true

I know I can expect nothing less from you

Untitled

When I feel I am lost like nothing I ramble makes sense at all

You always know the right thing to say you seem to catch me when I fall

When my heart seems so broken you are there to listen to my cries

Whispering things will be okay, reminding me I am strong and I will survive

In a crowd of people screaming so loud it seems no one can hear

You listen to me your comforting words take away all of my fears

You like my cuteness the little noises, the little things I do

How I do it I am not sure but your always calming me so great are you

Letting me run to you when I need you the most always leaving your ears open to me

If I run in the wrong direction you lead me back pulling me out setting my worries free

I don’t know how you do it, it when I am freaking out you just talk to me I come down from that place

As if you had just cradled me in your warm embrace.

Somehow you know more than anyone else when something is getting to me

You pull me into this comforting serenity of calm feeling the tension break free

Somewhere deep inside you ease away all the pain

Feeling such pride when I hear you call my name

Knowing you will be there

Knowing you will always care

Knowing I can tell you anything without judge or passing blame

Hoping you to me you can come with anything, for you are my friend the same

I cherish the time we have getting to know each other more and more

I always prayed for a man like you, a love my soul had always been searching for

I wondered if I would ever be so lucky to have someone like you as my own

Hearing you tell me I love you, would be the greatest I had ever known



To have you in my life is an honor a blessing and whatever it is that may come

I don’t want to lose this special thing we have you mean more to me than some

To be loved by you is more than I could ever dream more than you know

Forever my Friend

Tears have fallen from my eyes before

These that fall now behind them mean so much more

A love for someone,  a love so strong deep into my soul

I dont know what to say when he says he feels empty, yet loving me there is just so much I wish to know

He says it isn't the time for us to be together, that it doesnt mean he doesnt love, just needs to find something within himself

I sit here alone thinking how dear he is, my precious friend I am beside myself

Staring at each other's pictures, wondering if there will be the ability to act upon desire

Or will the emptiness linger about, slowly fading into the fire

Feeling as though I am being a bother, not giving him the space he needs, when I feel hurt, its him I always run to, but I cant do that right now

I will always be in his corner to listen to whatever he needs, being the friend I should be, I have to deal with my emotions on my own somehow

Loving each other may not be enough, wanting to just kiss him, hold him, make love to him, knowing it might not be, I have to put that in the back of my mind

I have to be his friend, not try to be the lover, its not what he needs rights right now, maybe all he needs is time

His friendship and his love means everything in the world to me

Praying he will find what he is looking for, the happiness he needs to be set free

Even if that happiness isnt with me no matter how it hurts I will be there until the end

Always loving with all my heart, but first and forever being your friend

Love in Friendship

So many words when you come into my mind
You know how they say love is blind
Seeing you as nothing but a friend at first
Now I need you like a neverending thirst
To want and need to just want to know how your lips would kiss
Will this feeling never cease
You give your heart and soul so freely, but take it back, will it always be like this

Together as friends we are so great as a couple I can only imagine
The passion I hear in your voice but my heart is still saddened
Your heart filled with hurt, not wanting to open but in me sometimes you confide
I couldnt think of my days without you, the tears still fill up my eyes
Once coming to this highest peak together
I felt all the energy come through the line, it seemed to make this feeling even better

Willing to stand here and be your best friend
Knowing I want and need you, but I didnt want out friendship to end

In you I found this person who gives me strength, hope and faith
This is something we have shared for awhile even when the days seem more than I can take
When my heart seems like its ripped into you always know what to say knowing I will survive
All around negativity yet our love keeps us alive

Wondering if love will ever work for us I dont know right now I dont think we can confide

This loving friendship we have is so much more than complete
Knowing if I cant have you one way, even if you wont love me that way, I know my heart will still beat

Love is something we dont take lightly its has to be something true
You are always within my heart forever, there is always a place for you

Please Forgive me

Please forgive me for holding on a little for this love you claimed to have for me
I cant stop this what I feel my heart has loved you so long, still wondering what might be

I know you don’t want to be with me this way

And this is all okay

I still am going to need you in my life, but don’t ask me not to love you

Please forgive me if I do a little more than I should, but as your friend I am always true

I remember everything you said, knowing you don’t lie to me, knowing what I do

Please forgive me if I cannot forget , but I know in my heart one thing our friendship is true

Please forgive me for needing and wanting you here or there

When the world seems to fall apart, the one thing I am sure of is how much you say you care

Don’t deny me this pain when you cannot love me the way I wish, if I cant stop loving you the way I do

That first night you confessed your love, I thought in my mind this is to good to be true

I understand what it is you need to do, we both have love so deep and have been hurt, love isn’t something we take lightly, but I will be what you need me to be even if its just your friend

Please forgive me if I cant stop loving you, I don’t know if you will ever want me that close to you again, but I am with you baby until whatever until the very end

Knowing what we used to say ,wondering do I ever cross your mind at all

I only ask because am I silly in thinking, was I dreaming did you really fall

But then I don’t want to know the answer, just want to be what we can be

One thing I know I am sure of, is that I know you are on my side, always having concerns about me

As I do for you, so please forgive me, if I cant stop loving you, I don’t know what I would do , if you weren’t in my life you are my dearest most precious friend

Something I never want to lose even if I am not the one you love in your heart, friendship so much more, even if I never can stop loving you, as I said before I am with you until the very end

Our First Time

Such love felt shuttering through my entire soul

Love sealed with a beautiful first kiss never ending, sweet love we shared I love you so much you know

Feeling more than I ever thought I could

Please forgive me if I love you more than I should

So excited because you are truly so real to me now, and so scared that it might all go away

Not wanting to wake up find out you dont love me this way

I think I see the fear subside

When I felt a tear fall from your eye

Stronger together in your arms I feel safe, I feel it is where I belong

Finally found the love with you one to be with for all the long

My soul doesnt feel so empty like I have my one true mate

Hoping together forever praying it wont be to late

I would wait forever though if it meant I was waiting for you

Finally now I have what I dreamed a love pure and true